An Open Letter to Don Fergerson – aka Zen Gardner

We had a friendly internet camaraderie, it was only when I found out about your 27 year dance with an evil pedophilia cult that I had to stand up and say something – or I would be complicit in the cover-up, a cover-up that you played a big part in. You seriously scared our mutual friend with your confession and she was physically upset that she could have been so mislead by you over the time you had known each other.

You were a leader Zen – a leader in the Pedophile cult with a doctrine of separating children from their parents and teaching them to “service” their surrogate “nanny”.

There are so many accounts detailing the abuses suffered by children, teens and adults – all during the time when you were a leader, spokesperson, publicist and responsible for damage limitation when child abuse accusations started to damage the cult.

I think people would be interested in this video… A video about COG during the times you were there:

Also this post by Lynn – about dealing with the guilt.

How does one get over the guilt?
Well, my question is, how do you as a parent get over the guilt of allowing your children to be abused by other members of the family. Point in question is when I was in the Miami home with Dominique & Lily, Lily made it her personal goal to abuse my daughter Esther, 8 y/o, and Jonathan, 2 y/o. The home was trying to copy the Jumbo style where all the kids were herded like cattle into age grouping, so you only saw your kids for maybe 2 hours a day and @ meal time. My daughter was told not to tell me what she was doing. On one occasion she threw my 2 year old son into a wall because he was crying and on a daily basis would beat my daughter until she was black & blue on her butt and backs of her legs. Because I was in the main house and Lily was in her special house for leadership. Her actions drove my daughter Esther to going to the medicine cabinet and drinking isopropyl alcohol and taking entire bottles of aspirin & tylenol in hopes of being able to get sick so that she could be with me. When children got sick they would have their mother take care of them & Esther knew this. the really sad thing about it is that Esther didn’t tell me that this abuse was occurring until she was much older & we were no longer in the family. She said that the relief of being out of the family was enough to satisfy her, but the emotional scars that were left didn’t heal until much later, if at all.
Many folks say that abuse didn’t occur, but I personally witnessed horrible abuse in the form of corporal punishment with hangers, belts, switches, you name it, and also the verbal & emotional abuse. A child placed on silent restriction for 2 weeks cuz he has a devil because he talked back to an Auntie or Uncle, that’s a bit extreme. Or what about when my husband had sex with a 12 year old girl, Miracle, when we were in Puerto Rico in 1980. She’s the daughter of Rain & Rejoice. It’s positively disgusting that the family denies these abuses and tries to villify all of those that aren’t in the family any more. I’ve spent 13 years in christian counselling, etc. to try & recover from the 18 yrs. of abuse and brainwashing. The sad thing about those still in the family is they are totally oblivious to their demise and mental states.
Lynn

[Source http://groups.able2know.org/xfamily/topic/770-1]

My motive was, and is, 100% clean and it was extremely difficult to have to be the one that revealed this hideous revelation. Now you want to attack me – I guess I can understand that – you’ve been outed.

But I did give you the opportunity to expose this in your own words, but you chose to water it down and paint yourself out to be the victim, just as people said you would – brush it away as just a thing in the past. If you were a victim and had escaped, then why did you return after getting out for a year? You were a leader Zen – a fucking leader – you had to enforce the rules and regulations – but now you are just a victim?…. sorry I don’t buy that. Have as much sex as you like between consenting adults – knock yourself out – but who looked out for the children Zen? Even your own son reveals more than he probably meant to in the very first line of his comment on your site.

So – here’s how it played out Zen – so stop making shit up about me.

Here is our email exchange. I haven’t included your emails to XXXXX, because I was shown them in confidence after I’d discovered some information for myself – you yourself asked if I could find out who you were – don’t forget.

My Original email to Zen after being contacted by my source…

Zen,
Whats goung on with You and XXXXX  ? – she’s in a right state.

She’s got something to tell me but its breaking her apart…. WTF

What have you said to her – she said she’d tell me when she feel capable.
WTF ?

My reply…

At this point I sent him an ultimatum…

After seeing private emails to my source from Zen and other information which I cannot disclose at this time

And followed it up with…

Hiding, covering up and whitewashing the filth and abuse will never sit with me – ever.  You were actually part of the “damage limitation” control.

So it comes down to this Zen or Don or what ever your name really is. You publicly reveal the full extent of you “working the way up through the ranks” to become a leader, you stop posting your fake “love and light” bullshit on the web, disappear never to be seen or heard of again in the alternative media.

Failing to do this will result in me doing it for you with a copy of the email that you unloaded on X – how dare you put that shit on X. All your email contacts that I have will receive the same information. It will be broadcast across the web, on all website that I have a hand in or know the webmasters. Facebook and Twitter.

I am not threatening any physical harm – I cannot be bought, waved off or threatened.

The one offer I am giving you is that you do this yourself so that you have at least some control over the content and how it is revealed. I have already put steps in motion so that if you fail to do this – all will be revealed to the whole “alternative media” in one hit.

You may reply to this email – either in agreement or refusal. That is the only contact I want.

Failing to reply to this email will result in a copy of this email being sent to your contacts and any others I know.

Your choice.

Steve

Philosophers-stone.co.uk

A follow up email to Zen, when my contact was being emailed by Zen and she was extremely upset and concerned for her safety.

I think you are in denial.

You will have got my final email by now.

up through the ranks – to become a leader – that’s complicit in anyone’s book.

I utterly disgusted, I try to expose this filth where ever I find it

You have had every opportunity to expose what you know/knew and experienced.

Why haven’t you – why dump that on XXXXX – what where you expecting. No wonder you didn’t tell me – and to think I let you into my house.

I have seen the Wiki about COG and The Family – if you haven’t I suggest you do.

I cannot begin to comprehend how sick the people in your perverse cult are.

You even post other pedophile exposing posts on your site.

All humans know intrinsically right from wrong.

You could expose the whole think with first hand knowledge – and close the filth down.

http://documentaryclub.blogspot.com.br/2009/02/cult-killer-rick-rodriguez-story.html

http://www.xfamily.org/index.php/Paul_Peloquin

Then an email from me to Zen, after he emailed my source again. She was concerned for her safety fearing what Zen  would be capable of.

OK, I’ll wait. don’t bother XXXXX any more, she has been traumatized enough
with this. I have given you this chance – against my better judgment because I am not
vindictive and I want the best outcome for all concerned. I’ll be watching to make sure
you don’t suddenly become the hero – for I know more than you think.

Steve

I have not at this point revealed my source, emails between Zen and my source or the “other information” I am privy to.

Steve | Philosophers Stone

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