I don’t know about anybody else right now, but my journey at least, has been one of epic proportions for quite some time now. Talk about digging deep. I should be at the center of the earth by now! My situation has been one of looking for my core issue to heal, but even more, it has been a battle of learning acceptance that has been so dramatic for me! There are things about myself I have looked away from for a very long time. Contemplating these parts of me and learning to accept these sides of me I have kept at bay, at the outskirts of my boundaries, has been heart wrenching and brutal at times. I feel like I am being stripped naked and there is no longer anything to hide behind. Like that age old saying ” You can run but you can’t hide”. There is no avoiding this process, each and every one of us needs to go through reconnecting with who we really are. We have allowed outside, worldly influences to become far more important in our lives than connecting with ourselves. Oh I know, we think we know who we are, but do we really? Some probably, but not the majority. We have been trained to stay away from the dark corners within. For a very long time we have been offered all kinds of materialistic goodies and distractions that supposedly make life easier and more enjoyable, yet we still felt empty. The further we fell into the trap of distraction, the further we became separated from ourselves.
I am learning all kinds of things that never entered my mind before and they have caused me to pause and contemplate and try to make sense of what I am unearthing. Only recently did I discover I had a huge issue with accepting all the many parts of who I am. Some of the parts I truly was shamed by, or disappointed by, they were sadly unacceptable therefore I ignored them. These are not easy ideas to take in and chew on for a while. A good portion of my life has passed by already and only now do I see just half of me went through my life. The unaccepted parts hung on behind but were never embraced by me. Such a shame really, but I am glad I figured this out now and not let it continue on any longer. Now I have something concrete to work with. Learning how to love all of me, opening all the doors and windows in my heart to let in the once unacceptable parts of me and become one at long last.
There is so much petty distraction going on in the world right now, in order to do my inner searching I had to retreat. The haze of insanity continues to float heavily in the air around the world, very little makes sense any more and a great deal that does make sense is infuriating, so why stay connected to it all? I needed to reconnect with myself for now, not the world. In going along through my life, what became of those parts of me I discarded because they were not acceptable? Did those parts experience my life along with me and if not, what are those parts, what did they experience? Have you ever stopped to dig deep and ask yourself major questions such as these? Try it. Once you start asking and uncovering you begin to see you really didn’t know yourself as well as you thought. We are a highly distracted society and we need to come back down to earth and settle in.