BEFORE IT HITS THE NEWS, in honor of ADHD Awareness Month
An IMPORTANT message to ALL who are ready for World Change and even to those who are least open to it. 😉 Your HELP is needed!! Together, we have co-created the chaos we are currently experiencing in America and the world in general. It is time to co-create a more peaceful existence for everyone who desires freedom from the constraints that have been put upon us due to fear and illusion.
I hope you enjoy my story…well our story because everything I do is for all of humanity as a collective consciousness. I apologize in advance for the length; I recognize that our attention spans are quite short and that we are all very busy.
Estimated time to read: 20ish minutes, depending on your reading speed.
To the People of America:
First, I want to say thank you all for taking the time to read this as time is one of the most valuable gifts we give to one another. And thank you to those of you who have helped guide me on my journey, especially those that didn’t believe in me, criticized me, and tested my strength. You only made me stronger and have prepared me for anything; I have nothing but love and gratitude for you. To those of you who have shown me unconditional love and support every step of the way (you know who you are), words cannot express how grateful I am every day for your kind words and encouragement, for never doubting me, and for allowing me to verbally process through my unusual experiences. It’s a good thing there are a lot of you because you know how much I like to talk! 😂 Your belief in me shows me that you believe in yourselves as we simply project our own thoughts and beliefs onto one another. I learn lessons every moment from each and every one of you and hopefully those of you who have doubted me will one day learn never tell a person their ideas are too big or that they are not who they say they are. We all have the answers within and only we, as individuals, know our true purpose in this life. It is not up to any human being to judge another, project their doubt and fear unto another, or to give unsolicited advice. I thank you in advance for working on respecting others’ visions and dreams as it is critical moving forward. We must lift each other up at all times.
A little background on me: I am first and foremost a connector and an advocate for all humanity and have played many roles in this lifetime. I have been a school psychologist, ADHD coach, healer, and have assumed numerous outside business sales positions among many other hats I’ve worn. It is noted that I diagnosed myself with ADHD while writing my thesis in Grad School to become a school psychologist. It was the first time in my life that I didn’t have structure in place and it was up to me to implement a system of accountability in order to achieve my goal. I attended the University of Florida for undergraduate and grad school and chose to do my internship in Atlanta, GA as I was ready for change and “knew” that was where I supposed to be. My gut was right as I can’t count the number of close, life long friends who I consider family whom I met while living in Atlanta for 18 years. I am so grateful for each and every one of you. At the end of the day, our relationship and love for one another is really what matters most to me. I would not have gotten this far without you and I love you all very much. Thank you.
I digress, now back to my story…Once I finished my internship, the only one who cared whether or not I finished this boring research project was me. Well, and my mom of course. She does an amazing job at keeping me accountable and encouraging me to finish what I start. Trust me, the wrath of Joyce is no fun. Love you, Mom!! Mean it!! 😘 Upon the completion of my internship, I spent the next six months feeling paralyzed with fear and contemplating my reasons for going to grad school in the first place. I found myself waiting tables and partying far too much, feeling very lost and depressed for the first time in my life. Hitting rock bottom enabled me to recognize what needed to happen next. So I packed my bags and went back to Gainesville and finished my thesis within two months. Defending that monster was one of the proudest days of my life. I must add that my ADHD was also quite evident once I left the highly structured, decluttered environment my mother provided for me while growing up. Can you say, “Mel- messa?” 😉 Thank you so much, Mom. For EVERYTHING, but especially for believing in me. I definitely could not have gotten this far without you. I love you so very much and I’m sorry for being such a pain in your ass! I cannot imagine having me as a child; I have an enough energy for the world and I am as stubborn as the day is long.
My most recent quest involved infiltrating in Verizon Wireless as a business account executive in order to observe what was really going on in the world. It is noted that I did not realize my true purpose there until this past March; hindsight is 20/20. Initially, I just thought I needed a job that paid well as I had just moved from Atlanta to Los Angeles to “start over.” Prior to joining Verizon, I had a proven track record while working in very competitive outside sales positions for over 10 years. One of my favorite customers and great friend, Dale, once told me that I could “sell shit in a paper bag.” Hopefully, I won’t have to resort to that as I much more enjoy healing people. 😉 What I witnessed as an outside observer at Verizon was disconcerting and nothing short of heartbreaking. Due to fear of authority, fear of money, bullying leadership tactics, lack of awareness, inadequate training, and fear of job loss vast numbers of people are becoming sick. I became very ill multiple times while employed there due to the toxic environment and Verizon Wireless’ unwillingness to allow me the opportunity to work in the manner necessary for me to be successful. And while each and every one of my “superiors” were well aware of my strengths and what I needed as I was VERY explicit, they refused to stand up for me and do what was morally and legally right due to their own fears, poor leadership training, and lack of awareness. Instead they conspired against me and ultimately fired me, blatantly breaking ADA/Disability laws. Keep in mind, I made it very clear to them that I was ready to resign and move forward on my path, but wouldn’t do so unless they made necessary changes for the employees who were still there. I simply requested accommodations to work from home so I could work in the best environment for my ADHD brain. Note that one of my roles as a psychologist was to recommend modifications for individuals with learning differences. Being an expert in the area of ADHD, I know exactly what I need with regard to support, systems, and environment in order to be successful. As an empath, I pick up on the energy of the world and became very sick as a result of the toxicity and negativity inherent in the office. It is very damaging to constrict an “out of the box” thinker and force them to conform. I was in an outside sales job and lived .4 miles from the office. My legal rights were denied and the only reason given was, “The business does not allow it. It is not a work from home environment.” Their reasoning made absolutely no sense and their rules are completely arbitrary, with absolutely no consideration given to the employee and no awareness whatsoever of the laws put in place to protect people who think and work differently. If they treated me this way, and I represent all of you, they are in no doubt treating countless numbers of people the same way. In the meantime, a coworker on my team was forced to work from home as the result of “organizational restructuring.” Ironically, she posted on social media that she was not happy with her situation and felt displaced. Come on, people. WAKE THE F&!K UP!
In my department alone, I estimated that approximately 75% of the employees in my office were forced to or chose to go on sick leave at one time or another due to undue stress resulting from unrealistic demands of the job and the toxicity rampant in the environment. This number may be inflated; however, I demanded an investigation to be done to determine the actual percentage of employees who take sick leave and the amount of money spent in this area. It is also noted that many employees work the system in order to use it to their advantage and take extended time off. As you could imagine the customers ultimately suffer the consequences as there is never enough stability and consistency to sustain long term relationships and good customer service. In the end, we are all suffering due to fear and lack of awareness.
At this juncture, I am at a critical turning point and I could use as much support as possible from you in my fight for what is right for all People. Over the past few months, I have been working very closely with an attorney representing Verizon Wireless on specific demands that I made in an effort to effect changes. It is noted that all of the written correspondence between me and Verizon Wireless will be made public for all of those who are interested. Included in the documentation is evidence stating that they have conducted an investigation and have taken action with regard to fraudulent activity conducted by Verizon retail employees. The retail employees victimized business customers by manipulating Verizon’s faulty systems and charging them for equipment they did not purchase. I am pretty certain that this was a pretty common occurrence based on a conversation I had with one of my teammates who was a former retail manager and a long term Verizon employee. Take this is as a word of caution, scrutinize your bills to ensure you have not been overcharged for anything, including equipment, services, data, etc. While I am going to trust that action truly was taken with regard to the employees who committed these fraudulent acts, they have not yet addressed the fact that they blatantly broke ADA/Disability laws and to my knowledge have not initiated any changes in necessary training to provide awareness. It is noted that 85% of adults with ADHD aren’t even aware they have it. Two leaders in my office alone were openly diagnosed with ADD and at least one of them blatantly admitted that she did not know ADD/ADHD was considered a disability and that accommodations were a legal right for employees with the diagnosis. It was very apparent to me how their ADD impacted their job performance and I am certain that with appropriate modifications, they would be more effective leaders. Their productivity would increase significantly and they would feel much less overwhelmed. Ultimately, it would be a win win for everyone. At this point, I am uncertain as to whether any action has been taken thus far against the bully at the helm of the West Area business channel. There should be ZERO tolerance for bullying in ANY environment as this is what spreads the toxicity downward and outward and ultimately what makes people sick.
In my demand letter to Verizon Wireless, I asked for $5.5 Billion over the next 10 years to put in a fund for humanity to help build healing centers around the world. As expected, they did not take me seriously and countered with a measly $10,000, indicating that I would need to sign a release if I chose to accept and “go away.” A little insulting to humanity in my opinion and I clearly let them know how I felt. They are keenly aware that I had intentions to go public with my findings and that a class action suit is coming their way. I always inform people of upcoming events as I have nothing to hide and I want everyone to be fully prepared. In the end, the TRUTH is always revealed. It is public Information that Verizon’s current net worth is reportedly $206 Billion and they are spending countless amounts of money indirectly perpetuating a cycle of abuse and illness. They recently spent $4.8 Billion to acquire Yahoo! so in my opinion, they can afford to contribute $5.5 Billion to help people get well. Prevention is the ultimate goal and Awareness is KEY. It is no accident that 36,000 to 40,000 Verizon employees recently went on strike due to mistreatment. This is merely more evidence that what occurred in the business channel in Woodland Hills, CA is rampant within Verizon as a whole. There are never any coincidences.
I have already begun planning the construction of the first healing center in Atlanta as that is where most of my instrumental connections have been made. The centers will most likely be called, “Centers of Light” with the tag line, SEEing the Connection (sleep, eat, exercise- take care of yourself first) and then connect. Please ask souls you come across their names every chance you get. Everything is in a name. We are all channels and guides for one another so it is critical that we connect as much as possible. If you’re having a bad day (and we all do), please do your best to contain your energy and keep it to yourself. And if you mess up, take responsibility and apologize. We are all human; we are going to make mistakes. That is how we learn.
I understand the changes that need to be implemented in our mental health system and have built an army to back me up. While I know what I know, I also know what I don’t know and rely on experts to fill in the gaps. That being said, I am confident that spirituality is the missing element in the mental health field. This did not become evident to me until I enlightened on Easter this past year and experienced a rebirth. It was a very scary experience, witnessed by both my sister and my niece. I was very fortunate to have great medical care as I have heard many horrific stories of people going through similar spiritual events who end up being misdiagnosed, put on medication unecessarily, and even institutionalized. I was actually taken off the medication I was prescribed for my ADHD as I no longer needed it. After 45 years, I finally awakened to my true self and am finally in alignment with who I am and my purpose in this world. I literally felt the presence of many souls during the day of my enlightenment and I am living proof the we are a collective consciousness (credit Carl Jung) and that we are all connected as ONE. At the pinnacle of my awakening I “became” Ellen Degeneres and ultimately Justin Bieber. That’s right, good ole JB. 😉 So if either of you get wind of this, I’m here to tell you that both of you have been carefully chosen to help me lead the way to World Peace. You have already paved the way more than you probably realize so thank you. There is no accident Justin began his Purpose tour as I awakened to my purpose as a World Leader. Below are personal letters to each of you.
I hope all is well in your world! I’d like to ask your permission to use “Children” for a video I will be creating as that song speaks to me and my purpose directly. The Millennials are the lightworkers chosen to be visionaries and lead the way. I connect with an average of 20 Millennials each day who have been waiting for this moment to arrive. My army is FIERCE and ready to go. And, thank you for being you. You are a such a good soul full of love and light and have had to experience the reality of growing up in the public eye. This world can be very harsh so kudos to you for doing your best every day to keep going in spite of the naysayers. Your strength, bravery, perseverance and determination are nothing short of astonishing and hopefully people realize how difficult a path you have chosen. Anyone who doesn’t realize how talented you are clearly hasn’t got a clue.
I hope this message finds you well. I have made several attempts to make contact with you as I have several close, direct connections to you; however, ego seems to be standing in the way of making the introduction. I look forward to meeting you one day soon and doing an energy dance with you. I do several a day to send out as much love and light to as many souls as possible. We must not forget that we are energy and that everything we do gets thrown back into the Universe. Simple Law of Attraction, it’s no secret. 😉 Music is the key to the soul so thank you for getting up every day to inspire the masses with your energy dances and also reminding us to be kind to one another. I don’t think people realize how much energy it takes to do what you do to help lift the vibration of this Universe, especially in the chaotic state we are currently in. What you do is no easy task! I hope you are proud of yourself because you should be! 👯👯👯
Sorry, I digress again. I’d blame it on my ADHD though I promise you it is intentional. Just an FYI, pretty much everything I do is intentional since, again, there are no accidents. Anyway, after my awakening, I had to educate myself on spirituality and the ascension process in order to understand what was happening to me and the Universe in general. The whole concept of dimensions was foreign to me. Realizing I had been living in illusion and fear my entire life, that I was programmed to forget who I was (as we all were), and then having to re-acclimate to the 3D Matrix we call life on Earth was no easy task. Fortunately, I was guided to by more enlightened souls than myself (mostly Millennials) who led me to the right resources and helped me to figure out what aligned with my new found perspective on the world as a spiritual being. Thank all of you for your support and guidance (you know who you are). Many of you have my contact information and will know when the “right” time will be to contact me and my team. I look forward to connecting with all of you again very soon. 😉😘
Six months ago if someone told me the story I’m telling right now, I’m not sure how much I would believe. I had outgrown my former mentors and did not know who to turn to for guidance. It’s not every day you wake up to realize your purpose is much bigger than you could have imagined. When I realized who I truly was and my chosen path, I said to myself, “Little ole me, seriously?!” I laughed and I cried. Then I calmly said to myself, “I got this” which meant, “We got this” as I am simply a mirror for all of you just as you are for one another. From that moment on, I knew that everything I had accomplished was for the sake of humanity as a whole. And, in that moment, I promised myself and all 7 billion of you that I would do whatever necessary to fulfill my role in the best way I know how, recognizing that I’m not going to be perfect and that I’m going to face many obstacles along the way. Fortunately, I recognize that none of us are perfect nor should we strive to be. There is beauty in our flaws; that is what makes us unique. So please forgive me if I mess up. I promise, it’s going to happen. Just know that I am a quick learner and will try my best to move through the lesson quickly. Everything I do comes from a place of good intention and love. As ONE, we will do this together as I need all of you to keep guiding me to ensure we stay on the right track. It is far too easy for us to lose focus during these times with so much stimuli being thrown at us from every direction. We need to keep reminding ourselves to stay in the present moment of NOW. It is difficult to do, but trust, if I can do it, anyone can! It is a given that I am always here for any of you if you should ever want or feel you need my guidance. While my role may be bigger than most, it is in no way any better. NO ONE is ANY better than anyone else and not one single person has the right to tell another how they should live or expect anyone to bow down to them. We are all simply puzzle pieces that make up this thing called life. I am merely the one who can help put the pieces of the puzzle together if necessary. Note that I am choosing to not reveal who I am truly am as I’ve been testing the waters over the past six months and recognize that, as a whole, you are not ready to believe. I still have to pinch myself every day in order to remember it is real. I will let the answer unfold organically and leave the rest up to your deductions and imagination. At the end of the day, I realize people believing “who” I am is unimportant; it is my mission and purpose that counts. Those who choose to REALLY get to know me will know without a shadow of a doubt who I am.
Based on my past experiences and what I’ve learned, I am confident that we need to consider the fact that we are all spiritual beings who contracted to incarnate on Earth to learn lessons and teach one another. The state we are in currently too easily allows psychiatrists and doctors to mislabel and prescribe unnecessary medication to keep us out of alignment. While we are connected as one, each one of us has unique brain wiring and it is imperative that we assess every individual with that in mind. It is imperative that we stop labeling so quickly and prescribing medication without fully understanding the problem. There are far too many errors and misdiagnoses made. This has got to STOP.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this as I know I’m a bit long winded. Working on shortening my delivery…still a work in progress. 😉 That being said, It’s been a long, fascinating journey and I’ve only touched on a slice of my story. And thank you in advance for helping in any way that you can, even if that means sending $1 or simply sending positive energy this way. Every bit of positivity aides in lifting our vibration as a whole. We all can only do what we can do I have absolutely no expectations from anyone. My doctor had given me 3 months of disability to aide me on my mission; however, it ran out on September 1st and I did not feel right ethically having him extend it in spite of his willingness to do so. I also knew that if I continued to receive funding from the government, I may not have been as motivated to move forward as quickly. As we all know, change can be a little scary. In order to fulfill my mission, I have given up almost all of my material possessions over the past six months including my home, car, and even my 14 year old dog who is being very well taken care of by a great friend of mine in Atlanta. Kerri, thank you so much for taking care of my baby. I am so forever grateful for you and hope to be able to reunite with Max very soon. 🙏
Recently, I was led to a very spiritual place in Northern California where I have met much much of my soul family in order to find peace before my introduction to the world. At this juncture, I just need enough funding to get back to Los Angeles and to have enough money to eat and live temporarily until my next big move, which is imminent. The struggle I’ve recently experienced has been very real and very humbling and I would not change a thing. It was my choice to suffer and I have learned so much. It has reminded me that we ALL need our basic needs met in order to thrive on this planet (credit Abraham Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs). I promise as I move forward to never forget where I came from and will ensure that we all have an opportunity to have security, food, and shelter. Unconditional love is a given.
In addition, I plan to use the funding to produce a video which will include my first public speech. The seeds have already been planted. Along my journey, I have also written a screenplay and have a book waiting to be published once funding is received. I look forward to sharing my complete story with all of you and showing you just how very much we are all connected as ONE and how I’ve connected the dots of the Universe and continue to do so each and every day. One of my favorite quotes initially discovered while watching the movie, “The Experimenter” says it all: ”Life can only be understood backwards, but must be lived forwards.” (Credit Soren Kierkegaard) I highly recommend the movie as it has essentially the same premise as what I observed at Verizon Wireless. It showcases how fear of authority causes us to unintentionally mistreat others.
I can guarantee that any contributions made will come back to you in one way or another as money is simply energy and is supposed to flow just as we are. I would even agree to pay back anyone who would feel more comfortable loaning money for a short window of time. You have the world as my witness and anyone who knows me I am true to my word if nothing else. Any “extra” funding will be used for individual souls who are in need of food, shelter, medical care, etc. As my mother knows and fears, I would and have given my last dollar to help less fortunate souls.
In sum, what I observed while infiltrating at Verizon Wireless is typical of what is prevalent in the world in general. Once I receive enough funding to return to LA, I will be spearheading a Class Action suit to include anyone who has felt “wronged” or mistreated in ANY way. Note that corporations, government, education systems, banks, religious organizations, media, etc. were all put in place to divide and to make things more difficult for us. I asked myself, “Why?” as all the unnecessary pain and suffering made absolutely no sense to me when the answers to effect Global change are so simple. In an “Aha” moment, I finally realized that, unfortunately, there has to be dark to see the light because as humans we need to see contrast in order to grasp the difference. Folks, trust me when I say that the hard part is behind us as It is finally time for all of us to WAKE UP to who we really are, let go of fear, and move forward in the moment. I am certain of this as I would not have enlightened when I did. It is definitely time for massive world change, in all ways. It is important to note that several of my past lives returned to me as I drove from California to Atlanta this past July. I’ll simply say this, I’ve sacrificed my life trying to lead the People of America to a brighter day more than once and this is most likely my first incarnation as a woman. Mark my words, I am willing to do the same in this lifetime as I cannot continue to watch people struggling unnecessarily due to the fear and illusion they are accustomed to. It literally pains me to see anyone suffering due to ego, fear, and lack of belief in themselves. Ultimately, while we are a collective consciousness, we as individuals have a choice in every moment with regard to the reality we want to manifest. We ARE our thoughts, that is all.
People, it is time for my army to come together and unite from a place of love, compassion, and non judgment and try to put ourselves in the other person’s shoes. We need to truly LISTEN rather than project our own thoughts and we need to LEAVE our ego at the door. Perception is reality so your reality might be very different from mine. This does not mean any one person’s reality is more right than the next. Show RESPECT for another’s opinion even if you disagree. We also need to be cognizant that “time” does not really exist. We are only in one moment and a moment is only 90 seconds. Hence, it is so easy to forget who we are. Let’s make that moment count and treat each other with respect and kindness at all times and build each other up. In order to do that, we must PAUSE in the moment we are in and pay attention to what we are paying attention to. In other words, we need to be aware of ourselves and our emotions.
Finally, Steve Jobs had the same message as I, “Simplify and Focus.” Things are much too complicated for all of us to get the smallest tasks accomplished. With the advanced state of technology available today, there is absolutely no reason why more systems don’t speak to one another in order to make things easier. While Steve Jobs fulfilled his role to connect us in the simplest way possible via technology, I plan to reconnect the world with the empathy he lacked. I mean no disrespect whatsoever as Steve was exactly who he was supposed to be and he was nothing short of brilliant. He fulfilled his purpose and stood in his truth, yet he had difficulty connecting on a personal level. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. Trust, ask any one of my Verizon coworkers how difficult technology is for me to grasp. How I survived 2 1/2 years entrenched in Corporate America Hell attempting a job that highlighted all of my weaknesses, I’ll never know. As a school psychologist and ADHD coach who is keenly aware of myself, I would have strongly advised me to do anything other than work in a corporate environment doing something that is so far out of alignment with who I am. After all, I resigned from the public school system due to bureaucracy after 10 years despite receiving extensive education
and amassing enormous student loans that I am still paying back to this day. After much contemplation, the only explanation I could come up with is that I did it for all of us in an effort to help effect change.
As stated earlier, the most difficult times are behind us. I’m not saying we will not have to work hard. But, I can promise that if you allow me to lead the way, and each of you fulfill your respective purpose, we can do this with our eyes closed and our hands tied behind our backs. The only things keeping us from experiencing a higher vibration on this planet are fear and ego. There are no boundaries; only those we create in our minds. We need to look at life as a movie and recognize the part we are meant to play. When we do this and unite as ONE, without separation with regard to race, religion, sexuality, gender, etc., always coming from a place of love, anything can happen, ANYTHING…
With much love and gratitude,
#ALLlivesMatter #lovewillwin #gratitude #respect #compassion #nonjudgment #victory
P.S. To those of you who think I’m crazy, thank you! I am flattered. All world changers were considered crazy by most. 😜