As I also previously blogged, I haven't been blogging as much recently. And I have been feeling very stressed, and depressed recently. I realized these might be connected. At the beginning of my medical disasters (except my hysterectomy which was 18 months earlier) 9.5 years ago, I started blogging about my medical crap. I was 'expressing my stress' (say that three times fast). I trained myself to vent through my writing. Then I haven't been writing, so I haven't been venting.
Last night I started thinking (which is very dangerous at times) and realized that I really need to start blogging again for the emotional stress release I need.
What is on my mind causing me stress? The bump on my head was a real eye opener to my stress levels. I spent most of last week doing a lot of nothing.
I stayed home all week, not just one day as usual. I went to PT on Monday and the doctor for my concussion diagnosis on Tuesday and that was it. I physically was not up to doing anything else. I didn't go to the gym at all. When I go three times a week, I get to see a lot of people and chat with some. I think its my one big 'get and see people' event each time I go. I also cancelled my second PT appointment of the week and skipped my knitting group. In not going out, I really isolated myself. Which was very bad. But I did feel so bad the beginning of the week that physically I needed to stay home and rest.
By the end of the week, physically I was feeling better but emotionally I was feeling worse. In addition to not going out, I didn't blog much so I didn't get to vent as I needed.
Saturday I had a craft show and I was very happy that I actually felt good enough to be there all day. This week I plan to be social – go the gym 3 times, PT twice, meet a friend for coffee, go to my rheumatologist, and prep for my next craft show this coming Saturday. I also plan on blogging every day.