Feeling A Little Grumpy

Yesterday during a team meeting I felt a little grumpy.  I was a little frazzled because I was feeling rushed and I didn’t quite feel myself.  Although many people would nominate me for the “Most Patient Man” award, I found myself feeling impatient with some of the conversation.  As soon as the meeting was over I had to rush home to meet some friends who have been helping me get my new computer up and running.  Although is it no one’s fault, what should be simple has not gone well.  It might be my fault for having way too much music on my computer.  Anyway, eventually I tested my blood sugar and it was way too high.  This may have been part of the reason for my grumpiness.  I was frustrated about this because I had eaten very little all day.  Lately it has been a struggle to maintain acceptable blood sugar levels.  It seems that it is either too low, which makes me feel like I am going to pass out, or it “spikes” which just makes me feel weird.  On top of these health frustrations, I am really tired of winter.  This weekend it is supposed to be sunny and 40 degrees.  I am thinking of having a family cookout to celebrate the heat wave.  My life is generally good and I have no major problems.  However, even with all my composure and attempts to live with a Zen attitude, sometimes life just is annoying.  It seems petty to complain but occasionally I want to scream.  I guess this just means I am a human being and I am allowed to have my share of frustration.  I know I will be fine.  All things are impermanent and all things pass.