This post is more for my personal records than anything.
I had another pain flare this morning and have subsequently taken Lyrica to control it. I'm noting that, but there's something else I wanted to make note of because its a new symptom that's rather worrisome…
(Its taking me forever to write this because I keep fucking up while typing!)
Just before or at the beginning of both recent pain flares, I experienced mini-blackouts. That is to say, I did things and couldn't remember doing them afterwards. I only realized it because evidence showed me I did something, even though I don't remember doing it.
Before my really bad pain flare I wrote about before, I got a text from Cat thanking me for telling her something (via text.) I didn't recall texting her that day, so I checked my phone, and sure enough!– I had. I checked the time and I just have memories of watching a movie or something on my laptop. I didn't really worry too much at it, but I scratched my head a little. When I'm flaring, my short-term memory starts to glitch pretty badly. I wasn't foggy in other ways, as I could think my way through my tasks okay otherwise.
Today, as my pain flare began, I reach for 3 50mg pills of Lyrica. Then… there was a gap in my memory like I blinked and moved forward in time slightly. I got my drink to take the pills and the next thing I know, they're gone. I had them in my hand. I searched around. Did I take them already? I almost went and got more pills– but thought better of it. I decided I may have taken those pills and just not remembered– even though it had to have been only a few seconds before. I tried and tried to recall taking them, but my mind was a blank. It was really rather weird.
A couple of hours later, the Lyrica kicked in and I realized for sure I had taken them, even if I had no recall of it.
This time I am fogging. I will post this later when I can edit it because it's so messed up.
I also think I should write a post during a real fog and NOT edit and post it later so you can see the extent of how screwed up my cognitive processes get– which is also information I should record for myself.
Anyway, worse case scenario I'm having mini-strokes. I doubt it, since there's no lingering symptoms afterwards. I have had 30 years of short-term memory glitches during fog flares, so this may just be another manifestation of it. I don't like it, as my brain is rather precious to me! When it works, it's quite wonderful. I love to learn, think, use my imagination– all day long if I can. I can't stand it when it all turns to gook and I'm just staring at walls uselessly.
I will be making an appointment to see a (new) doctor next Monday. Just in case. I need to renew all my prescriptions anyways. I really dread medical appointments…