Why I AM Different

Whenever I would sit down to write for this blog, I would create and outline in my mind and measure my words carefully, so that each entry is about the same length as the rest.  Some are a little shorter and some area  little longer, but they all average about the same.  This entry might be different, because I have a lot on my mind this morning.  Let me begin by saying that I no longer feel a need to try to defend what I claim is a life given by Angels.  I inherited a theology from my Angels and this theology permeates every aspect of my life and living.  The first thing my Angels told me in our conversation that night was that if we knew what heaven was like, we would be falling all over ourselves trying to get in.  I often have wished that I could change how God will judge and try to make exceptions.  But I can’t do that.  Knowing God won’t make exceptions means I can’t give eternal life to those who have eternally lost it.  I can’t reverse what has already been done.  I just can’t.  And when Jesus comes back to this earth to judge with His Heavenly Hosts, He won’t be able to change anything either. 

I am not sad this morning.  I have resigned myself to a belief I have had now for quite some time.  I just might be the ONLY person who has both accepted my Angels and is about the only person who CAN accept the theology of my Angels.  And if that is the case, I can accept this in my life, because the path in life I choose to live is a path that only I can take.  I might pick up stragglers here and there, but it has never been my intention to form the theology of my Angels into an organized religion or cult.  I am a Church of ONE person and it’s all I can be.  Some might believe me.  Some might be curious as to just how and where and why I had an experience with Angels.  I can’t tell anyone how to attract Angels into one’s life.  I often wish I could.  But people are going to have to find comfort on their own terms.  If death is nothing for me to fear, what is there otherwise, I have to fear?  I actually fear nothing.  I don’t live in fear.  I don’t fear death and I certainly don’t fear poverty.  I don’t fear wealth.  If I have a fear it is only what most anyone would think of what I claim is from Angels.  But really, I have just about come to the conclusion that my Angels are too costly for most anyone to accept.  One has to believe there IS a sin that God will not forgive.  Actually, there are two, but both are related.  They are the sins of murder and suicide. 

Most any Jew, Christian, or Muslim would suggest there is a path to salvation and it’s by what we do; not what we DON’T do.  But I am saying we have God’s salvation as long as we don’t intentionally take a Human Life.  And that is all there is to it.  I can’t change this.  Even if I tried to change this, this is a reality that is what it is.  I could suggest my Angels were something other than my Angels, but if I said that, I would be lying.  How convenient it is to say you are lying about something that can’t be real.  Yeah.  For this reason, I am the ONLY sane person living in an otherwise crazy world.  BUT, I am sane, only if a person can accept my Angels.  And I don’t know what to do with that.  I really don’t.  Okay, already I have reached the point where I would normally quit writing and close an entry.  But I have a lot more I want to say this morning. 

I went public with my Angels back in September of 2010.  Since then, I have faced death twice due to health issues.  Since then I have told most everyone I feel who needs to know all about my experience with my Angels.  And sometimes I have failed in that attempt.  But then I say this is God’s problem, because He is the ONE who chose me for a specific task.  That task is to help prepare the way for the coming of the Messiah and often in my thinking, I have felt God has chosen the wrong person.  But chosen I am.  And I can’t change that.  There are times when I wish there had been no Angels, but what would have been the alternative?  Most likely I wouldn’t be here and these entries to this blog would have never been written.  And I don’t know whose lives I have touched.  I don’t know if I have convinced anyone either of the theology of my Angels or the experience itself. 

Now, this path I am on now is a path of my own choosing, because I claim to have had an experience with Angels and no one can direct this path in any way.  I can do with it as I wish.  And right now, I don’t wish to do anything other than what I have done.  I have said that God doesn’t care about our sins as long as we can live with ourselves and we do no harm to others.  That is all there is to it.  I don’t care what your sins are.  In fact, I don’t live with regrets about my own sins.  Evidently I am claiming that God doesn’t care what I have done.  I don’t live with a list of do’s and don’t's other than to NOT take a Human Life and being able to live with myself.  That is all there is to it.  I don’t sit around thinking I could have done this or that for my Angels or maybe I shouldn’t have said this or that.  I am human.  My Angels certainly didn’t make me divine.  And I know people WILL judge.  It’s what people do.  But I say I have been judged by God already and He’s not going to change His mind about me.  I won’t do anything to give Him reason to change His mind about me.  I am far from perfect.  And I grew up at another time.  I might not fit into the thinking of today’s world because of how I think having grown up at a different time.  But I know God took this all in consideration when He chose me, which was probably long before I was born.  In fact…  Well, I am not sure I want to go there.  But I was chosen thousands if not millions of years ago.  And here I am.  But most anyone can say this, because each of us have a purpose for life and living. 

It’s just that my purpose is different.  I will live to see the arrival of the Messiah.  And that is just another reason for me not to fear.  There is a place for me in heaven already.  But no one knows whether he or she will ever take a Human Life or that one can turn on oneself in an instant.  I know this too.  But I have resigned myself to the fact that I AM indeed different.  And while I haven’t been able to list every reason why, the fact is, my Angels made me different.  And there is nothing I can do about that.  I AM indeed a different person.  I think differently.  There are things I know that I know only because I claim my Angels told me.  I can’t change that.  I can’t change a reality that is indeed real.  I can’t re-interpret history.  But I never did anything that would cause God to change His mind about me.  And while I am saying I am far from perfect, as far as God is concerned my theological thinking has been correct most of my life.  God doesn’t care what we either do or don’t do as long as we don’t take a Life including our own.  That is all there is to it.  And unless God tells you otherwise, most likely, you have been called to this life for your own path.  I was chosen for a path that isn’t my choosing.  But if I could have chosen my path in life I wouldn’t have chosen otherwise.  Some might wonder if my path doesn’t get lonely.  Actually, people drive me nuts.  I prefer loneliness.  It’s what I know I do best.  Peace.  I am Brother Ralphie writing for my Angels from The Angels of Life Institute.  Brother Ralphie works from his study for the promotion of Peaceful living and inner Peace with God. He calls this the “Sanctity of Human Life Movement.”