I don’t normally respond in comments sections, but I wanted to here.

I was in Christian religion for a very long time. I used to believe and teach this with all of my heart until one day I awakened to the fact, who is this god that people serve who will allow so much destruction and damnable events to occur all because people fail to obey, and yet will not spend one second in teaching, edifying, guiding, instructing in real time? Instead we are supposed to figure out who has it right and choose inept people to follow as being part of some sort of vicar in place of god, being here real time.

After months of prayer I received this thought in my mind that truly confounded me until I spent the next 15 years proving it to be true… After prayer this powerful thought came into me and said, “My son how could you even think for one second that I could be behind these events, and actually relish in them. I have nothing to do with this evil, all of it is being orchestrated by Lucifer the God of both good and evil. I have nothing to with the events of this world, and never have. This is not my world, so stop pointing to me when you cannot figure out your own involvement and acceptance of this wickedness.”

I realized with ten thousand christian religions all using the Bible, all saying different things, which one was actually speaking for god, if any? The sad fact is, no loving parent, nor Father or Mother would ever allow some demonic being or entities to destroy their children with such horror all because they do not understand what it is exactly that they need to know, due to all of the miscommunication and deception littered about everywhere.

People try for the most part with a myriad of exceptions, and each one perceives things differently, not by failure, but by reason of education and perception. However to some they think that gives them the right to damn others who fail to see their logic. Some actually can’t wait to see others burn for having failed in their logic.

That is when I realized I would not want to be part of a god who thought like this, acted like this, or responded like this. Why is the devil in control of both hell and earth and beyond? Why does he have so much power to have even killed the Christ.

That day I was shown the truth about this, the Father as he was called, claiming he is not called God, but he is our Father and Mother of his children, and he said, “I am saddened you think I could be part of this evil, the very fact you believe it’s me, makes you perceive divine righteousness wrongly. And then it also allows you to partake of the same behavior because you believe I am behind it. Rest assured I am not behind any of this.”

Was there a war in heaven, and did Michael really win for God’s children? Then why are we the prisoners of this war, if we won? Why is Satan calling all the shots via nations and governments that serve him and him only, and god allows it?

It wasn’t Christ that told the devil he would give him all of the kingdoms of this world if he only bowed down to him and serve him as the rightful winner of the war in heaven, it was the other way around.

And this is the Biggest one of all, if this god was true and righteous, then why is Satan and his demons working very hard to fulfill a prophecy that supposedly Christ set up, sealed and opened by himself. Why would Satan, the Illuminati, the evil ones all be supporting prophecy, trying to make it happen, if they are the ones that will ultimately lose?

We are dealing with a jealous, wrathful, indignant, ego led being who would rather you kiss his ring than to show for a minute one ounce of true mercy, compassion or unconditional love. And that is when it hit me now six decades later, this aint the true God, this had to be the devil playing both good and evil roles. Only a devil would seek and or allow vengeance upon his own, not a loving parent. It all comes down to fruits and character. You shall know them by their fruits!

How are we to have the fruits of the spirit and righteous character when the god of the Bible doesn’t even have it? Instead he is a war god, a jealous god, a violent god, one who would rather show punishment than mercy. One that would rather inflict harm for faulty understanding, than teaching and rewarding.

We are left with some Bible which is filled with contradiction and confusion, which reveals it should be named Babel. And we are stuck trying to make sense for our eternal life where no sense is given. That is when I read, the divine secret garden, and now it all makes sense. We have all been lied to!