Rambling nonsense

Hey desk jockeys, how are you all doing? (not that I care in the slightest). This post is just some of my thoughts at this moment in time. Its most likely low content nonsense and id just stop reading here before you waste any more time on my blog.

But before I continue, I got blasted by a Thai girl because of my last post, the email read “why didn’t you say nothing nice about Thai girl?” and so on. So ill say now that 99% of Thai girls, regardless of profession or background are nice to talk to and easy to get on with. I actually find it refreshing that you can talk to a girl here and have a normal conversation and they are willing too actually talk to you. Back home if you even ask a girl how she is, or what they up to, they give you some ghastly look of disgust that you even attempted to talk too them, like there some beauty queen or princess.

So I feel like at the end of this, be it even tomorrow or in 6 months time, if someone came up to me with a gun and shot me in the head, I wouldn’t even care. Ive not really “achieved” anything or done alot, but I just feel so good and positive about everything in life right now.

Its like I’ve step out of one world, of chores, routine, work, responsibility, stress, commitment, goals and all that other stuff that people tell us to care about, and entered a new one. A world were it doesn’t matter what I do, be it sleep all day, go play football for several hours, troll various internet website or just meet friends. No external pressure from family or peers, saying I got to do X, Y or Z, which ultimately leads us into doing things we dont want to do. Time and dates dont exist, every day is heaven on earth, I go to sleep with nothing on my mind, and wake up the same way. If I got beaten up this minute, robbed of my wallet and phone, all I would be thinking is, “oh, time for lunch” and go get my morning breakfast of mango and sticky rice. Everything just seems totally irreverent to the big picture, life!

I know you haters are reading, I get your emails and delete your comments quite often.You will most likely say that I’m living in a bubble, which is going to pop with a big drop, and that I should enter the “real world”. Yes maybe your right, but does it really matter, I dont think its what you achieve in life that matters, but how you feel at every moment, and I’m having the greatest time of my life.

“Laughing at our own mistake can lengthen our own life. Laughing at someone else’s can shorten it” – Cullen Hightower.

Don’t worry  ive not gone into full hippy mode, I watch my money, ensure I have enough to do what I need to do for the next 5 months, try to be smart by using my brain and logic (or lack of). Balancing my work and play, I would be foolish not to do. I actually spent A LOT less money then I expected, so I’m just holding out a bit longer before I start seeking work.

In other news I think I’ve got a part time modeling job for a gay travel website (whatever pays the bills, am I right?), and hopefully ill be moving into a new apartment very soon, but more on that as and when I get more information.

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