and the new life begins...

Honor Yourself

okay, it was a slow start…
no internet at their new house, so i had sons in and out for days and days workin’ here.

am i complaining?
oh no.
it was a great transition.
nice and slow….

gave me time to get used to it all.

but i gotta say…..
i just gotta say……..

i am so so so loving this new life of mine!!!

i can’t believe it.

what???

not sad???
not bummed out and trying to get over it???

i really thought that’s where i’d be.

but i guess i didn’t account for the fact that we’re all so close it’s a bit like
being in dorm rooms. you just run over and borrow something if you need to.

i figure that’s got to be the reason.
the close vicinity.

i don’t know, that’s my best guess.

but i do know this -
i am the happiest i have ever been in my whole life.

wow.
should i say that again?!

i am the happiest i have ever been in my whole life!!!

wow.

and get this….i feel so happy i feel like i’m gonna burst!
honestly!
and get this….i honestly feel like i’ve got everything anyone could ask for!
i feel like i’ve got it all!

and i wonder.
can i shout that out?
can i get up on my roof top and shout out ‘I’VE GOT EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD!
I COULDN’T ASK FOR A DARN THING MORE AND I’M SO DARN HAPPY ABOUT THAT!’ ?????

is that okay etiquette, i wonder?
i mean….does that make other people feel bad?
cause they don’t have everything?
(ah, but they do! they just don’t know they do! WE ALL DO!)

and then i grin.

okay……i don’t have EVERYTHING.
if that helps.
i don’t have money.
i don’t have a car with low mileage.
i don’t have a lotta THINGS.

so okay…if that helps….i don’t have EVERYTHING.
and i’ve still got my issues and various inner turmoil and people in my life i don’t know how to deal with.
yeah, i’ve got all that stuff too.

does that help?

does that make it okay to shout – “I DON’T CARE ABOUT ALL THAT STUFF RIGHT
NOW CAUSE I’M HAPPIER THAN I’VE EVER BEEN AND I HAVE EVERYTHING!!”

go figure.
i’m completely surprised.
i wasn’t expecting this reaction.
and completely thrilled about having it.
even mowing the lawn has become a tickle.
because it’s my lawn.
now, to be clear, it was my lawn before.
but somehow logic doesn’t seem to reign right now.
just the joy of finding myself with time to myself, and liking that.
liking the chance to really just be with myself.
liking the taking care of my own place – my own domain.

there’s so much i want to explore inside of me.
there’s so much i want to do.
there’s so much i want to soak in.

and the new life begins………