My Angels and Communication with God

I would suggest to most anyone that my Angels made me a different person.  I am not much different now from how I had been different prior to the experience, but that I just think differently from most.  I understand this about myself.  My therapist/friend said that I needed to write down my conversations with God.  I told him that I would, except that I don’t believe my communication with God can actually be shared, because I am not sure others can appreciate my relationship with God no matter how I try to explain it.  I have conversations with God in my mind.  That almost sounds as if I hear voices.  No.  I understand what “hearing voices” is.  It’s not like that at all.  I believe it is the psalmist who says that God’s thoughts are his thoughts. 

I don’t have arguments with myself.  I KNOW who I am to God at ALL times.  I can’t explain this, because I can’t explain God except as I understand God to be.  I have this understanding about God that came to me through my Angels.  After that experience I have been able to communicate with God ever since in ways I have not been able to do prior to the experience.  But I am totally unable to explain HOW I communicate with God.  This makes my conversations with God as personal and intimate as conversations can possibly be.  I don’t pray to God.  In fact, I don’t petition God for most anything in life.  I tell God that I WANT to become this Brother Ralphie character that I have built in my mind based on my experience with my Angels.  I think of major life events as steps to this goal.  It’s not going to happen overnight.  I understand this.  And what I have as a goal to become Brother Ralphie and want I want to do as Brother Ralphie, might not be what God wants me to do.  I don’t pray to God asking Him to make me into this Brother Ralphie character.  I do that on my own.

What I ask of God is that I do His will, never being sure exactly what His will might be.  I know what I am not able to do.  I am unable to do harm to others or to do harm to myself.  If I achieve these two goals, I do the will of God.  What I do NOT know is how God wants me to share with the world this divine experience with my Angels and what this experience means both to myself and to the world.  I want the world to know HOW the Messiah will judge once He arrives.  I do not know whether God wants me to do this and if He does, I do NOT know HOW I am to achieve this goal.  All my communications with God are about HOW I develop as Brother Ralphie.  I understand perfectly God’s divine Grace knowing there is no Grace in Law.  What I don’t often understand are people in general.  And for this, I need help.  I seek that help both from my therapist/friend and my wife.  I know most everyone doesn’t know God as I do.  But I don’t boast about this.  I am not writing to boast about this.  I KNOW I am different.  I am unusual.  I am very odd.  I can’t help this about myself.  I say that I am indeed VERY special KNOWING I am very different from most in a very unusual way.  And this is how I communicate to God.  I know He knows I am VERY different, because in fact, I give Him both credit and praise that I am the way I am.  Peace.  Brother Ralphie From The Angels of Life Institute Brother Ralphie works from his study for the promotion of Peaceful living and inner Peace with God. He calls this the “Sanctity of Human Life Movement.”