It's What I Do NOT Want to Do

Negatives aren’t the best way to write.  However, there IS something about my Angels I don’t want to do.  But before I go into this, let me say that I have a psychiatrist whom I have been seeing for my medications for the past three years.  I have avoided talking about my experience with my Angels with her, just as I have with every psychiatrist I have had for the past almost 25 years, simply because I don’t really enjoy talking about my experience with my Angels.  But it’s not only doctors that I have had that I don’t want to talk to about my experience with my Angels, it’s really most anyone.  I could just give her or most anyone the URL for this blog site and tell whomever is interested to read some 1650 posts I have made since having gone public with my Angels.  I do NOT enjoy talking about my experience with my Angels.  Maybe it’s because at first, I was really excited I had the experience.  But then having told only a few at the beginning, I was told that I had lied, hallucinated, or that the experience was demonic in some form.  The fact is, I worry more about belief in the experience than I worry about most anything else when it comes to personally sharing about the experience itself. 

And because it took me so long to convince ONE solitary person, I am rather burned out trying to explain an experience that some 25 years later, isn’t all that easy to explain.  It’s not that people don’t have experiences with Angels.  They do.  Just as there are all kinds of paranormal experiences that often aren’t easy to explain.  I understand this perfectly.  However, I could just write an autobiography, get it published, and hand anyone I think might be interested and say, “Read it.”  But the fact is, I don’t want to spend money on self-punishing books that only a few people will read.

Having said all this, I have said that I don’t worry about what people think in regard to my Angels.  This is true if I don’t have to interact with people in general.  And that brings me to what I said in my most recent post earlier today.  If I don’t have to interact with people I am fine doing what I do now for my Angels.  I am anonymous and as far as I am concerned, even those who read what I write are anonymous.  It’s when my Angels get personal that I can be bothered by what most anyone thinks of my experience with my Angels.  I am happiest when I am NOT worrying about what ANY person thinks in regard to my experience with my Angels.  Now, this gets back to my sharing the experience with my psychiatrist.  Whether she believes me really doesn’t matter, because as far as I am concerned, her purpose is to make sure I have my medications.   My Angels told me I had to have my medications.  So, actually, it doesn’t matter what she thinks in regard to my experience with my Angels, because she STILL has to make sure I have my medications.  My thinking is that if she understands that at least my experience with my Angels is real to me even after some 25 years, then she has a better handle on what I believe is real now.  And really, it might be that if she does believe me, it’s just another person who can give support to what I say in regard is true in light of my experience with my Angels.  If I believe that God will do the rest, then all I have to do is be truthful about the experience and LET God do the rest.  I can’t say this about all other people, simply because it’s not necessary for anyone to believe me, EXCEPT that I would know and to me, that IS what really matters.  Peace.  I am Brother Ralphie writing for my Angels from The Angels of Life Institute. Brother Ralphie works from his study for the promotion of Peaceful living and inner Peace with God. He calls this the “Sanctity of Human Life Movement.”