Are My Angels a Fantasy?

Some might say I live in a fantasy world.  I say that everything could be a fantasy.  I could say life isn’t real.  I could say people aren’t real.  I could say that wishing for some kind of Divine intervention is living in a fantasy world.  In fact, I would go so far to suggest that Capitalism sells fantasies.  EVERYTHING is a fantasy.  Look at our advertising.  We address a problem and then we give a solution.  And if you have the solution, your problem wouldn’t exist.  It would magically go away.  We tend to think that EVERY problem has a solution.  This is true in much of mathematics and the sciences, but there are problems for which there is NEVER a solution, but God knows we always will try something just to experiment whether what we do solves a problem or not. 

Let me say something about my experience with my Angels.  I had a problem.  I didn’t want to live.  I couldn’t see a future.  Now, some people solve this problem with suicide.  And God doesn’t give those people who succeed angels.  And I can’t explain this, any more than I can explain why I had an experience with Angels, except to say that for whatever reason, God wanted me to live and He STILL wants me to live.  Why?  I can explain this by saying who I am to God.  But all that matters is that I understand as perfectly as I can just WHO I am to God.  I understand my purpose for living.  I understand my purpose isn’t to be a wealthy man.  I am wealthy in other ways.  IF my Angels were a fantasy, let me just say this blog would never exist.  My 1750+ posts would never have been written.  In fact, my wife more than likely would have remarried.  And my children would know me only for what I did to myself.  Everything I know would be completely different IF there had been no Angels. 

Since my experience with my Angels, I have faced death twice due to health issues.  But even when I did face death, I never worried about dying.  I only worried about the pain I experienced while facing death.  I would say that pain is my biggest fear.  It’s not about death and dying.  I will be here when the Messiah comes.  But many would say this is MY answer to MY problems.  It is to a degree.  And it’s why I don’t write about experiences with Angels, because MY experience was so incredibly different from ANY other experience with Angels I have either read or heard.  I can’t help this.  BUT my Angels were NOT a fantasy.  What I am saying they told me is a REALITY.  God does NOT forgive murder and suicide.  I can’t change that. And even if I said otherwise, what I would say otherwise does NOT change this.  What you believe doesn’t change this.  In fact, NOTHING can change this as a reality.  God does NOT forgive murder or suicide.  There are times when I WISH upon WISH that I COULD in some way petition God to make exceptions.  But I can’t.  My Angels have spoken.  But this is the bad news my Angels gave me.  And it’s why I am alive today.  No matter how I feel, I have no choice but to live in this world.  I might not understand right now, but I will understand everything I need to understand some time in the very near future.  This too is a reality I can’t change. 

I have been asked then about all other people who are alive right now.  I can only do what I am able to do.  I have no guilt or regret about ANYTHING I have either done or not done.  But I hate it when people judge me as we all hate when people judge us, sometimes or maybe more often than not, wrongly.  I can’t help that.  People judge.  It’s what they do.  But NO ONE can judge me for God.  This is why I say ALL other sins we commit don’t matter.  But good will beget good as evil begets evil.  Some say it’s the way God judges us.  Well, I say it’s like Karma.  Good comes back to us and so does evil.  Our sins will haunt us.  BUT, as far as God is concerned, we have no choice but to live with our sins and to live with the judgments of others.  This is why I choose to live and choose to let live.  My purpose for living is for THIS very Message.  God does NOT care what we either do or don’t do as long as we can live with ourselves.  This is ALL we have to do.  And we choose to let others live in process.  People will care about our sins.  People judge accordingly.  There are laws that judge us.  And no matter what, we have to live with those judgments.  But as far as God is concerned, all that matters to Him is life.  Jesus paid the price for ALL sins.  We are all worthy of death, but we live because Jesus paid the price.  We don’t even have to believe this.  And THAT is my point.  God doesn’t care what you believe as long as you believe in LIFE.  You cannot take a life and you cannot take your own life.  And I live because, in essence, that is all there is to it.  Peace.  I am Brother Ralphie writing for my Angels  from The Angels of Life Institute.  Brother Ralphie works from his study for the promotion of Peaceful living and inner Peace with God. He calls this the “Sanctity of Human Life Movement.”