“I Don‘t Want to Find What I’m Looking For”

I recently wrote about someone in the UFOCI who found the mother lode, who knows the truth but who’s so angry at me for outing them for unashamedly promoting a pathological liar as a “UFO contactee”, that they would rather pursue profit and fame than openly inform others about the singular authenticity of the Billy Meier UFO case.

The publication of my latest press release elicited another response that seems so bizarre to me that I have to share it.

My release was picked up at a popular website and caught the attention of one Terry Montgomery Groff, a MUFON Deputy Director. It appears that Terry has taken the rather unique approach of joining an organization that looks for evidence of extraterrestrial UFOs…but doesn’t want to actually find what he’s looking for. Beyond that, faced with the information that the organization in which he’s a Deputy Director has now posted information about the Billy Meier case for its members to investigate, challenge and question, Terry had a minor meltdown. Excerpting from two of his posts:

“MUFON is NOT reopening this case and is NOT re-investigating this case and whoever told you that is lying. Yes, the story was posted on the MUFON website but that is all…No one from MUFON is investigating it. It is only there for visitors to read.”

So not only does Terry appear to be calling his Executive Director, Jan Harzan, a liar, he wants to make darn sure that, beyond not investigating and finding what he’s looking for, he doesn’t want anyone else to find what they’re looking for either.

Now this is clearly a hobby for Terry in which he’s somehow risen high up in the ranks while – no longer secretly – trying to make sure that neither he nor anyone else concerned doesn’t succeed with the presumed core purpose of the group. While this is a rather peculiar behavior – one could view it as a twist on the Greek myth about Sisyphus – one has to wonder if Terry represents more than a few of the dabblers and dilettantes in the UFOCI who simply love the distraction, the false significance, the fancy little titles, the cake and coffee socials and the comfort and security that never reaching the actual goal gives them.

After all, if they too find the mother lode, the thing they claim to be looking for, well, what fun will that be? Who wants to have to buckle down and take personal responsibility for everything in their lives, to stop chasing lights in the sky and alternating between seeking saviors, or fearing being abducted by “evil aliens”?

Perhaps Terry will clarify his position, somehow explain all this, or maybe just get…another hobby. Of course I hope it won’t be weaving, lest Terry emulate that clever woman named Penelope who figured out how to not finish a project that she really wasn’t interested in either.

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“I Don‘t Want to Find What I’m Looking For” originally appeared on They Fly Blog on July 18, 2014.