Robin's Missing...

Robin’s daughters contacted me tonight– apparently, their mother is missing and they wondered if she was with me. Uh– no. 8^(

She left here Sunday evening last I saw of her. She was very upset because her husband has been forcing her to beg for gas and grocery money, claiming he’s broke– and she found proof he has been hiding over $9000 in 8 separate bank accounts! THEN a couple of her youngest daughter’s friends are telling Robin that her daughter shoots other people up with drugs– and herself.

Well, Robin didn’t have a nervous breakdown, she got PISSED. And rightfully so. Yet I was worried because she’s not handling being pushed to the wall at all right now. She’s attempting to get control of her life by fighting everyone in her family to make them fall into line (with reasonable things, like cleaning the house and NOT allowing druggies to live there) but I worry she won’t be able to handle that level of stress for long. She still has too much on her plate as it is and other than myself has literally NO support. Her (eventually ex) husband is yelling at her for upsetting his comfy, lazy world– and he’s shoved her a couple of times. Her 3 daughters are in their early 20s and have rather over-the-top dramatic lives of their own. They don’t really understand the totality of what happened to their mother. Robin’s started to share, but they don’t seem to grasp the depth of the pain and damage that’s been inflicted and how its effected their mother afterwards. In some ways, they don’t want to know. They just want their mother to be the same person who took care of everything for them like she did before she left 3 years ago.

I tried going to bed 2 hours ago because I was feeling pretty exhausted, but I couldn’t sleep because I just had nightmare after nightmare after nightmare. Literally 4 in a row over an hour and a half! I usually get maybe 1 a month. So I got up and distracted myself and then came the phone call. Oddly coincidental. But then, when it comes to Robin, I often get dreams and/or nightmares when she’s going through something powerful. Like when she gave birth to her daughters or the night Mark first attacked her.

Yeah– sleep will be elusive tonight…