A Lighter Weight of Feeling

Um– like wow and stuff…

Today, I woke up and went through my normal routine and realized several hours in why I was feeling so different…

… I felt GOOD today!

Really good. Not even slightly sad or anxious or world weary or plodding! What a difference! There is no doubt in my mind that I was facing the beginning stages of depression now because I haven’t felt this– LIGHT– in months! I mean, you carry this weight with you for weeks on end and you forget you’re even carrying it. But today, I shed the last one and its just unbelievable to note the difference. I now realize I’ve been carrying this around since late May. I mean, I used to feel this light mood routinely. Just content and relaxed and cool yet warm all the time. But I lost it so gradually that I failed to notice it until well into the summer. Now that I’m BACK, I can see it (feel it) so clearly.

I feel connected again, as if the world is an intricate web that I’m wired into– which is how its SUPPOSED to feel. Things seem possible again, workable, doable… Now I can actually appreciate my good fortune again and key in to that which is holy in my life.

Its a stark contrast I must say.

Yep. Depression alleviation for sure.

It came on by May I’m feeling fairly certain. I’m thinking the fear of facing all those demons left back in Ohio helped to start it. My injury and loss of regular exercise helped to propel it still further. And then the whole peri-menopausal aspect hit in May as well. 3 blows in the space of a single month– it proved to be too much for my apparently vulnerable system. It all makes sense. I guessed as much, but now I know for sure.

I’m glad the natural treatments are working so well now. During my favorite season. The temps are cooling. The rain and sun are taking turns now. The air is getting that spicy-dusty scent I love in autumn so much. Oh my gosh! I just love this time of the year and now I can actually enjoy it instead of just existing beside it. THANK YOU!!

Of course this means I’ll be keeping up the supplements for a while. I’m also slowly, oh-so-slowly, trying to get my legs back into shape again. Its still touch and go but I’m much better able to just get up and DO things now again, and that certainly helps.

Very strange how a mood disorder can start to lighten up bit by bit and then– POP!– suddenly things snap back to normal again so obviously. Its just the strangest yet wonderful thing. I”m really quite taken aback by the change. But all told it took only 2 and a half weeks– not bad!