Sowing Through Tears

Do you have those moments that are engrained in your memory, and you can recall every detail down to the clothes you were wearing? I had one of those days on February 5, 2017 – it was a rainy Super Bowl Sunday. I was staring into space as my mom bluntly threatened to disown me and take her own life if I married my then fiancé, Corbin. I remember the shock and fear that came over me as I froze in my seat and then the disappointment sank in… We had waited, prayed, and believed for God to miraculously move hearts but this felt like an undeniable defeat. I trudged back to the car where Corbin was waiting. A tiny part of me wished that he would say, “This is too hard. Let’s just end this.” My head rationalized that giving up would be the easiest way out of this mess. However, we both knew the promise of God stamped with the confirmation of the Holy Spirit – the promise of a blessed union that nothing and no one could separate.

But what do you do when your circumstances don’t align with the promises of God? I wrestled with this question and realized that too often I get stuck at “this isn’t how things should be.” I focus most of my … Click HERE to continue reading