On Turning 82 And Owning A Great Truth

My whole life has been a journey, a quest, to find a lost little boy within myself who once knew, and longed to share the truths that I am now sharing with you ~ a little boy who profoundly experienced at the deepest level within myself, a love and joy that indelibly connected me to all of nature ~ It was my first experience of the Unified Field .

At four years old, I knew ~ for a few moments ~ that I was a beloved and essential part of a loving universe ~ I was in the Unified Field of love and soul consciousness.

Two years later, when I was suddenly taken away from my grandfather, my heart closed and I checked out. Emotionally, I stopped growing and for the next 30 years that transcendent moment of soul consciousness remained buried beneath a well of grief, a mantle of psychic pain, aloneness and despair ~ it hurt too deeply to feel anything deeply. But in the midst of that initial pain, I had a vision of the Golden Gate bridge, water and houses ~ a moment in time precognitive vision that I would eventually walk into 40 years later. See http://www.veteranstoday.com/2015/12/26/walking-into-my-precognitive-vision-of-the-golden-gate-bridge/

So my whole lifetime narrative became an unconscious Quest to find that little boy and empower him to feel that deeply again and own and share his joyful truth with the world.

In essence, the psychic pain of being seemingly separated from love is so great that emotionally we stop growing and our lives become a quest to recreate that pain in a subconscious attempt to go beneath that pain and reunite with our original state of wholeness and joy.

As such, all of our love relationships are steps on this quest until we finally embrace the grand prize ~ our authentic self and our part in a universal loving plan ~ the Unified Field .

It was Teilhard who wrote in his last unpublished work, LE CHRISTIQUE ( The promised land )