Surprises, a Raffle Blanket and Chickens!

I am fighting the urge to pull all the seed starting supplies out.  It’s almost time!!!  I am ready for spring and this wild, cold weather isn’t helping.  I will be moving the cows to the far back field come spring so I can have a monster huge garden this year.  I’m set up to mulch every bit of it so I won’t have to be weeding 3 hours a day, every day.  New ideas gleaned from what I’ve seen at the farmers markets plus the farm stand to be set up here on the farm.  I’ve recruited a couple local growers so we can establish our own farmers market right here.  Doing this will save us all time and money and comply with the states regulations of “2 or more farmers”, allowing those of us with cottage exemptions to sell everything we offer.  I see this as a “win win” mostly for me, the convenience of having the farm kitchen right here and the time saving from not having to pack up and drive anywhere.  Plus, the more delicate, doesn’t travel well stuff can be offered.  Better cool storage options too.   The traffic (business) I can easily generate just by being on a main highway will also sell the non food items myself and my local friends offer as well.  I look forward to this being the new beginning of a better life!

Eh, I am still struggling some with the divorce and anger issues over it.  The relief of it being over, knowing that I am really all alone and then the resentment over all the ignorant, disrespectful crap that was done to me over the years.  Him showing up here on a Sunday afternoon, while I was at work only for me to find him in his underwear, in my front room, when I got home from work was an infuriating reminder of what a total jerk he was and apparently still is.  The petty little crap he did to me that last few months still chaps me and I know I will never get those personal items he liberated from me back.  I guess it’s why I’m still so angry.  The last few years, not only my spouse, but a few people who gained my confidence via friendship, have behaved in this same, juvenile manner.  I was not raised to behave like that so it angers and annoys me.  Makes it hard to accept friendship since now I am always suspicious of people.  Sad, eh?  Eh, I’ll get over it.  Onward and upward, to bigger and better things!  Eh, GG goat just missed the potty box, onward to more floor scrubbing, yay rah, LOL