3 Tasks For the Week-- Done.

I made the appointment for my cat at a local vet clinic! It’s all confirmed. In about 2 weeks or so, I’ll get her issues taken care of and all will be well on that front.

Much easier than fixing that bank thing yesterday. I can’t believe I was brought to tears and the beginnings of a panic attack by that! Argh!

But– I shall strive to concentrate on the fact that I managed to get my ‘baby step’ goals accomplished for the week!

I’m definitely feeling much more cheerful today. Cat was feeling better as well, and we actually chatted animatedly for a couple of hours after she got home from work, which isn’t always the case. Some days, Cat gets home from work, we exchange news over about 5 minutes, then she gets her dinner and goes up to the Salon to watch TV before bed. Tonight, it was chatting by the Keeping Room fireplace about various and sundry.

Confronting my fearful procrastination seems to be helping my overall mood for sure. I feel less guilty, and less like a loser, so that’s an improvement. You know, I’ve been practicing Cognitive Behavioral Therapy techniques for decades at this point, which is all about not saying mean things to yourself, which are usually exaggerated and inaccurate. But—! Even if I don’t articulate it in words, not being able to function fully as an adult is a continuous blow to my overall self-esteem. I don’t think I can afford to procrastinate my To-Do list for very long. Not on the essentials.

Some of the things on that list are past 3 years old!

The relief at getting a few minor things done is modest, though. Apparently, a judgmental part of myself thinks, “You should have had that done already!” and doesn’t want to let me congratulate myself too highly. Well, I won’t! No worries. I am merely trying to keep the guilty loser feelings at bay a little better. Just that would be an improvement!