End of the Year/End of the Decade: 2014, 2015, 2016

The important part of this particular 3 year period is that my marriage fell apart. My husband started mentally abusing me out of the blue (I think he was hoping I’d get sick of it and leave him for being an asshole, but I was so bewildered that I didn’t go there… instead I weakened and “took it”) and then cheating on me (which I’ve learned began around these years as well– luckily I stopped sleeping with him then because I can’t be close to someone whose being a dick to me!!) Finally, he got outright abusive, fooled me into accepting 2 guys that became his lovers into our life and home, cheated on me with one of my own friends (and maybe others…) and then divorced me to live his new life of pretending to be 20 years younger than he is as if that would stop his aging. Fucking pathetic! But it turned my entire life upside down and really did a number on my psyche.

End of 2016, The Divorce & Move Out Year: lucretiasheart.livejournal.com/1222389.html

End of 2015, New Home & Betrayals: I actually never did a year-end assessment because I was so struggling to even breathe many days. Nutshell version– it SUCKED. The whole fucking year. Utter misery.

End of 2014, Some Not So Bad Things: lucretiasheart.livejournal.com/1095901.html

End of 2014, The Sudden Mental Abuse By My Husband Year: lucretiasheart.livejournal.com/1096004.html
Gerick started just picking on me and harassing me the summer of 2014, and I finally nailed him down at the end of the year. But we were also trying to find a place to move to and dealing with our close friends and neighbors, the twink boys, at the same time. He pulled his shit together for a few months of respite from the abuse, but once we moved in 2015, he returned to very harshly mentally abusing me– and then the boys joined him. But 2014 started off pretty good. I was at my best, things were good. The only glitch was the home we’d made was put up for sale by the university who owned it, and stability went away AGAIN. But the point is my whole life changed the summer of 2014. That’s when Gerick turned rather evil out of the blue. We had problems, but his personality went DARK in a horrible way at that time and he was never the same again afterwards. And I don’t think I can ever forgive him for that. He felt OLD!?!? That’s a reason to be a DICK!?!?

This is the most painful era of my life except for my youth living with my crazy, abusive, neglectful, hoarding parents. My entire adult life has been better by far than my youth. However, this 3 year period was so horrible I hate even going back to think about it. But for the sake of my “decade review” I suppose I must do just that.