Carl "the Cuddler" Has Been Around Since Oct '09

I realized I haven’t thought about how long one particular astral visitor has been around. He literally just walked into my room one day while I was meditating and came up onto the bed…

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It was so many years ago! He showed up and then kept visiting once or twice a month for all these years. Sometimes it’s more often, sometimes I hardly feel him around at all for months, but in general ‘Carl’ is a pretty regular visitor. If he finds someone else in my bed and they’re female, he’ll stroke their hair or hold their hand or spoon them, just like he does me! And if I switch beds, he’ll figure it out, but it took a few weeks the last time. He never comes to me if I’m visiting someone else’s home, or if I’m staying in an inn or hotel or going camping. He seems to need a home location.

I’ve felt him clearly many times, but only seen him with my physical eyes (and so a blurry energy form in a human shape) and never been able to move my head out of my body so I could observe his face clearly.

Reading this from the entry I made at the time– “I try to take an hour about twice a week to meditate all the way into deep trance mode– which is where one has to be to be able to perceive the astral state of reality really well. I make sure I do it when I have no pressing matters on my mind, and when I’ve had plenty of sleep, and am generally feeling pretty mellow and relaxed. Most of the time, I just feel wonderful floating within my own body and nothing happens. But about once a month or so…? I have a visit or a vision or something.” –makes me realize how much I’ve dropped off my own normal spiritual practices.

I think the run up to the divorce and the divorce itself and its aftermath just threw me completely off my 2-decade plus long set of spiritual habits. Last week brought me back to that place for a while, and I realized I’ve really missed it… just being casually used to doing medium to deep trance states on the regular. It’s been at least 7 years since I’ve induced trance states or even done real chakra work!! I’m astonished at myself.

I think I’ve felt so useless and scared of the world that I forgot that taking time for regular spiritual upkeep is essential to staying on my game. I’m glad I had enough practice to even have the slightest clue of what to do for my friend Sleep. But I’ve been ignoring all that for years now, unless it gets shoved into my face spontaneously. I’m not exploring that part of reality on purpose anymore.

But I need to.