Jazz & House Guest Updates

Jazz is getting a little better. She started eating again and so I started up the steroid treatment I was sent home with again. A few days after that and she’s still super tired but more alert and engaged than before, her meow is no longer a grating whine sound, and she’s moving around on her own more again.

It’s still touch and go. I don’t know if all of this is too little, too late– or not! Maybe not… maybe.

So, I’m keeping her in top shelf pate and tending to her very faithfully, but no longer dealing with waves of constant grief. I mean, maybe she won’t make it anyways, but as long as she’s trying– I’m trying to help her. If she looks dull in the eye and stops eating, I’ll let her go and just give her a higher dose of gabapentin for her pain.

In other news, we have a house guest who is a friend of Odyssey’s staying with us this week. He’s also been kind enough to offer to help me with some of my outdoor chores like coop cleaning and weed whacking which my near-constant fatigue makes all but impossible for me to keep up with! He’s lived an adventurous life it seems, and I can only imagine what it would be like to go off to Costa Rica or Mexico or South America to ingest shamanic substances and try experimental forms of healing or community!

I feel like a terrible hostess though because my heart isn’t into visiting or talking with anyone just now. I feel so overwhelmed. I’m trying to work on a couple of pagan lessons to be done before Litha, as well as prepare for our 3 day Faerie Festival in just a few days! I don’t want to disappoint Amara after skipping Beltane like we did! And my extra terrible fatigue is still the prevailing state of my body, as well as more deep pain. Every fucking thing is so much harder than it was before! It’s not easy to relax and just talk, though I managed to chat a little with our guest.