farm update

I know I’ve been pretty quiet lately but there is a good reason.  I’ve had some serious non farm related issues to deal with.  As most of you know, I have been working on a divorce for a while now.  My husband is sick.  Not physically but mentally and the abuse will never end so it’s way past time.  This evening was just another round of his behavior fueled by 3 bottles of wine, a 1.75 litre bottle of rum, a litre bottle of irish cream and a baseball bat.

This is whats left of my cooking shelves and my cookie jars.  I tried to leave but he decided to try and stop me.  After getting banged off the wall, I got outside, made the call and waited for the help to arrive while he stalked around with the ball bat threatening to kill all the goats, all the while professing his undying love for me.  Thank God he was too drunk to get the safe open…

The last few years have been a series of things like this, just not this extreme.  Enough is enough.  So, now he is sitting in jail and I am out of luck for spousal support.  The prospect of being homeless is still better than continuing the cycle of abuse I’ve been living thru.

So, what else besides all this depressing crap???

Well, there’s the 3 farmers markets I baked for. The first 2 I barely made the fuel money back, the 3rd one I made $12 after fuel.  Not was I was hoping for or expecting.  At this point, I’m simply not in a position to keep going with it for such a small return.  I will be looking double hard for an off the farm job.  I’ll have 3 weeks before I end up in serious trouble.  I’m going to sell some of the critters but I won’t sell cheap.  Maybe a little cheaper than what I really want but I won’t be giving anything away.  Eh, lots of thinking and planning to do but it’s now 3am and I need some sleep…….